Happiness

What is it?
It can be the moment when we first started smiling..when we did not know why we are smiling or a time or an incident which makes you so happy that you cry!You cannot hold back the tears.
Everybody must have had this phase in life wherein you know you are going to be happy and smiling after that moment and you are looking forward to it..but once it gets closer and closer.. once you realize that you are about to achieve what you have longed for and strive hard for and the only best thing..the only precious and yearned moment of happiness.....
But,then do you experience a weird feeling of sadness and doubt?
A feeling which is protecting the happiness "pearl" by creating a hard shell of doubts and expectations and responsibility crisis?A shell which is making it hard to open and see that pearl ..
A shell that is created unknowingly to protect it and also knowingly because you are afraid that something will happen..something wrong will happen..
Self created thoughts..and doubts which are just trying to make you cautious in a way.. help you in getting a grip and and be rooted to the ground..help you maintain the importance of the moment probably.
The wisest thing to do would be not to get intimidated ...
Keep smiling once you achieve what you want and make sure the shell is not that hard that you loose the fun and enjoyment and exhaust all your energy keeping it safe.
Live in the moment ....

Status!

Status!

Was writing about the bailout and its implications and wondered what it is going to do /not do in India..how things are going to change.. but before that.. the current status

Fin moguls down

Bail outs offered but the ones 'bailing out' hardly know what they are doing

Buy outs happening overnight and the new owners are still grappling to find out what they bought

Someone told me yesterday about a grade A downtown office building in London that had Lehmann as a tenant and 4 year rentals were insured by AIG!

Elections

Sensex in 4 digits

A huge bear hug

And not knowing the extent of it all.

I read somewhere the other day that we are staring at the eye of the storm so we do not know the extent of havoc it is going to wreck.

Seems like even if we are able to assess the extent of this problem, we can solve it!

And then think about this time last year! I don't know whether that thought makes me nostalgic and euphoric and just simply sad!

I told a friend yesterday that in last few years of student life I have seen the best and now I am begining to prepare myself to see the worse of it all.It will be a good time to learn a lot but the worst time to find JOBS!

Anyone who thinks he/she is unaffected by all this is only living in a fool's paradise.

I still remember Mr. Colin dyer's (President and CEO, JLL) speech, roughly 11 months ago. After telling (most eloquently) about what is amazing about India as a market, as an opportunity and how he has always been told by one and all about how Indian economy is 'different', 'decoupled', 'immune to global financial shocks', 'not following trends as all the developed and emerging markets around the world' etc. he pulled out from his jacket pocket a coin. Flipped it and watched it as it fell to the ground. And he said, 'But India, too, has gravity! What goes up has to come down!'

How far down is the only question...

Maybe Warren Buffet knows...

the wait is still on......

I am really frustrated today,might be because of a lot of things/reasons, but the foremost one is the wait that is killing me literally.....
I am frustrated,and wierd "up there"...dont know how and what to do....
Have you people experienced this ever, that the only thing you want to happen takes ages to come into or happen the way you want to.. i am really reallly sad today............................................................................

Making sense out of Nothing

I realize that I have come a long, long long way from what and where I was. So sometimes, I fail to recognize myself, and sometimes I fail to understand the world around me. I cannot sort my feelings for people well these days and simply cannot understand my relationships with people. And I accept that I'm not making any efforts in this direction too. Maybe its just be a phase or possibly might be here to stay. Not that I'm complaining - since in no way is it troubling me. For I have given up troubling myself with such thoughts – more often than not its futile thinking about it anyway.
I've become more lazy than ever, and I can declare myself not to be 'busy' at all. Possibly I have started managing my time much better or not getting unnecessarily burdened with futile projects. I'm getting more time for people, but I find that some of them aren't even worth my free time. I've been spending money extremely miserly for myself - but still for the world around me, I seem to spend money extravagantly. I feel I'm enjoying myself more than I possibly should – still I feel its well-deserved. This wonderful medley of thoughts and feelings has left me confused....

silence.............

has this ever happened to you?
that.... you had zillions of things to say but just couldn't open up?you had the right moment the right or the only person you wanted to but you just could not do it?its been happening a lot these days to me......

WHY?

What.. is it about having choices that makes life difficult?? Why does every god damn thing on the planet earth has confounding as well as uncertain pros and cons?? How the hell can anyone feel as if he/she has taken an 'informed' decision after assesing the situation?? Things - small, big; Situations - inconsequential, consequential; Expectations - high, low(read no); People - damning, caring; Life - perplexing, simple ........... All of this is a riddle of choices. And at the end of it all I hear people saying, "I really had no choice" Silly..............Tough