Making sense out of Nothing

I realize that I have come a long, long long way from what and where I was. So sometimes, I fail to recognize myself, and sometimes I fail to understand the world around me. I cannot sort my feelings for people well these days and simply cannot understand my relationships with people. And I accept that I'm not making any efforts in this direction too. Maybe its just be a phase or possibly might be here to stay. Not that I'm complaining - since in no way is it troubling me. For I have given up troubling myself with such thoughts – more often than not its futile thinking about it anyway.
I've become more lazy than ever, and I can declare myself not to be 'busy' at all. Possibly I have started managing my time much better or not getting unnecessarily burdened with futile projects. I'm getting more time for people, but I find that some of them aren't even worth my free time. I've been spending money extremely miserly for myself - but still for the world around me, I seem to spend money extravagantly. I feel I'm enjoying myself more than I possibly should – still I feel its well-deserved. This wonderful medley of thoughts and feelings has left me confused....

silence.............

has this ever happened to you?
that.... you had zillions of things to say but just couldn't open up?you had the right moment the right or the only person you wanted to but you just could not do it?its been happening a lot these days to me......