Making sense out of Nothing

I realize that I have come a long, long long way from what and where I was. So sometimes, I fail to recognize myself, and sometimes I fail to understand the world around me. I cannot sort my feelings for people well these days and simply cannot understand my relationships with people. And I accept that I'm not making any efforts in this direction too. Maybe its just be a phase or possibly might be here to stay. Not that I'm complaining - since in no way is it troubling me. For I have given up troubling myself with such thoughts – more often than not its futile thinking about it anyway.
I've become more lazy than ever, and I can declare myself not to be 'busy' at all. Possibly I have started managing my time much better or not getting unnecessarily burdened with futile projects. I'm getting more time for people, but I find that some of them aren't even worth my free time. I've been spending money extremely miserly for myself - but still for the world around me, I seem to spend money extravagantly. I feel I'm enjoying myself more than I possibly should – still I feel its well-deserved. This wonderful medley of thoughts and feelings has left me confused....